Current location:	Tucson, AZ; unfortunately
Current mood:	restless
Current music:	Something For Kate - Seasick

Stupid, pointless drabble.
Tonight clinches it... I am an emotional whore.
I don’t know what to say. I feel like I should write something, and I want to... I just can’t get my mind to be normal. Sometimes I wish I could be “normal”... actually that happens a lot.
Last week an ex-girlfriend told me, “I wonder what it is like to date someone normal.” At the time, I took it as a compliment. I wear my “little weirdo” badge so proudly when others are around. And yet, sometime this afternoon those words echoed in my mind. When I heard them again in my mind, I took offense to those words and all they implied. The more I think about it, the more apparent my distance from the social norm becomes. This idea implies I actually understand what normal is to other people. I don’t have a clue! I only know how people react when I say or do some of the things which are considered to be abnormal.

10 Startling facts about my love life:
1) I have never made the first move with a woman, and I have never asked a woman out on a date.
2) I have been cheated on by two different women, both more than once. There are still musical artist I can’t listen to because of these events.
3) A married woman, who I once considered a good friend, tried to seduce me multiple times. One of which was in her daughter’s bedroom. Her daughter is three years younger than me.
4) I kissed a guy once, but it was to get our girlfriend’s to do the same.
5) I was once engaged. At least as much as a very selfish 17 year old can be. She would later invite me to her wedding.
6) I was once romantically involved with a woman born on the same day as me, which goes against one of my cardinal dating rules. She would later invite me to her wedding.
7) I have been in real romantic relationships with 8 women, 4 of whom have invited me to their weddings.
8) I have had 2 “flings.” One which I wanted to develop into a real relationship and one I wish I had never met.
9) I begin relationships quickly and with a great deal of blind, careless passion. Two summers ago in Korea, I met a girl. After only 3 days together, we were both willing to begin a long distance relationship. Those three days were the most romantic of my life, and we never even kissed.
10) The only romantic partner I’ve ever been able to stand living with, was on vacation the entire time we lived together.

I don’t know the point of this entry really. I haven’t been able to sleep lately, and these are some of the things that have been going through my head while still awake.
I’m sorry if you read the whole thing.